The bubble has popped! As I fly home from crete 3 months earlier than I had previous intended what better time to reflect and write this post. Not only to pass the painfully slow time it's taking to get home, but also while everything is so fresh to me. I think aeroplanes are a great place for reflecting and thinking. Many a thought or plan must be made on board. Travelling to new places, for whatever reason, really emphasises on a new experience and a step away from every day life.
As you know, I set off to experience rep life abroad. A task completely out of my comfort zone and a very big adventure. Thinking back, there really is no one place I can even start, what a journey it has been.
I have learnt so much about myself and how well I can cope, which is a new found confidence I will take forward with me. Anxiety really can't stand in my way now, I feel like I've done it all, what can be more scary than moving abroad alone.
One big lesson I found is that you don't have to change for anyone. I have truly been me this whole journey and you soon see through those that put on a front. People like honesty, and why would you try to impress people by not being you?
I have truly met some amazing friends along the way, who I will no doubt see again as well as bagging myself a lovely boyfriend- who is one of the most caring people I know. I was hoping to meet some nice people along the way, but I wouldn't change these people that I have shared this experience with, for the world. You know who you are and I want to thank you for everything and for being truly wonderful. I will never forget my gouves family and all the times we shared together, most of which in rainbow bar with George.
It's been an emotional roller coaster. I've been up, I've been down, I've been sad, I've been the happiest I've ever been in my life and more recently I've been absolutely exhausted. So exhausted I ended up in hospital. I know, I know classic Gemma style - this stuff could only happen to me! Happy to say I'm ok, but looking forward to getting back home and back to full health and to feel myself again. The gym is definitely calling my name after all the saganaki and milkshakes I have consumed.
In some ways this has been the toughest 3 months of my life. It's not once been relaxing, but I feel like I really have experienced everything that I was sent here for. Some might say its a shame it didn't work out, well what didn't work out? I'm going home with some lifelong memories, lessons, soulmate and friends. I've developed as a person and I've learnt that you can never make everyone happy, and that is totally ok. I've learnt there are lovely people out there that want the best for you whether you've known them 30 years or 3 months.
Although I've shed a few tears on this journey home at leaving such an amazing experience behind, my heart now belongs back in England and I'm ready to see where life takes me next. Expect plenty more blogs, lots more photographs and my life discoveries along the way.
Now excuse me while I catch up on 3 months worth of rest and sleep.
Gemma xx
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