Sunday 23 June 2013

Magnify Your Successes

Heeeyyyy,

Apologies for the lack of blogging this week, it has been a bit of a manic one. This is literally the first chance I’ve had to sit and think.

I can’t believe how quick time is flying and it’s literally three weeks until I go on holiday... arghhh!!! I was supposed to be ridiculously skinny by now and I’m.... most certainly not. Anyway I’ve decided not to worry too much because I intend to be forgetting the world of reality, sipping a lot of cocktails and generally having an amazing time.


I saw this quote online midweek and was just what I needed for a little pick me up. It’s too easy for negative thoughts to get in your head and stay there no matter how much you try to ignore them.   With this in mind, I’m magnifying my successes from the week... ..and what an amazing start to the week I had.

On Monday, I was very, very brave and tacked up Nixon and rode him all by myself! This might sound completely ridiculous, but since my falls, I absolutely dread the thought with no one there to help me. I’m aware this sounds rather negative from the start but this is what I’m trying to get over- human instinct of fear!

When I was on board I didn’t feel shaky, sick, faint, fearful I felt, dare I say it .... relaxed! I really enjoyed sharing the moment just the two of us. I was even so relaxed I took a few photos on board.


This weekend I had the most successful shopping trip in a long time. I spent way too much money, but all items holiday appropriate, so I warrant that a success. I dragged a friend along with me and she was an amazing personal shopper. She totally understood my need to try things on in different shops and return back to them to make the purchase after the outfit had been mentally put together. Does anyone else do that? I’m so indecisive and just have to really think about my options before taking the plunge to actually buy something. I also absolutely love all the ORANGE!!! My holiday suitcase is going to be pure coral and navy.

In other exciting news I have now made a Facebook page (link down the right hand side) on which I will post mini updates and keep you informed of when I put up new posts etc. I’m now developing some photography ideas so these will be blogged about, as and when I feel like it.

And Finally, I have such a treat of a photo lined up for Monday moments, so see you back here tomorrow.

Gemma xx



Saturday 15 June 2013

Introducing...Nixon

Hey,
So as I have already mentioned part of this blog will be equine focused. So now that I’ve introduced myself it would only be naturally fair to introduce who I will be talking about, rather a lot, and that is my horse Nixon.
Nixon is a 17yr old, 16.1hh warmblood with a not so charming history. When I first met Nixon, he was pacing up and down the fence to his field and looked rather depressed and distressed. He had made a rather negative name for himself being called things like ‘killer horse’ from busybodies in the local pet shop! Well in fact he was just one misunderstood boy who had never experienced love from anyone that came across him.

I’ve been told all sorts of stories from his past, that he’d been starved, mistreated, been passed from dealer to dealer and that he was left in a field for a year with no human contact. This is where operation ‘Save Nixon’ began. Initially it was my auntie that took pity on the rather large and unappreciated boy. In fact when I was small it was my auntie that introduced me to horses in the first place, and we all know how that ended (read the entertaining story in my about me section). I always remember she was so willing and keen to ride the ‘crazy’ horses so I must have been eager to follow in her footsteps. Anyway she and a friend whisked him away to a new yard.


They had a big task on their hands and a few incidents with Nixon and his new owner later, I was somehow introduced into the equation. With my new found passion for horses again and being a naturally quite patient person our bond blossomed. Every day without fail I went to the yard for cuddles and a chat, and after one traumatic day, when I saved him after he had nudged his fly mask over his eyes so he couldn’t see, I think he began to actually trust someone... me!

As we were getting on so well, his owner decided to loan Nixon to me and I was so happy. More cuddles and chats later we were ready to start taking the plunge into the scary monster filled world aka beyond the electric fence...!!

When I think back to this stage I literally can’t believe how far Nixon has come. Leading him from the field to the barn was simply a nightmare. He would spook at everything, try to spin, trample everyone and once tied up would just swing and pace from side to side. It was at this point I gave him the nickname ‘Babby’.

We persevered and he was starting to come round to the idea that he was a horse not a monster and after much grooming, lunging and groundwork I was even riding him too.

A couple of weeks into our new friendship and hard work, his owner decided to sell him- I was devastated! I was living 40 minutes away for university, juggling my course, job and most of all pennies. After much deliberation I just couldn’t see him go back to another dealer, so I made the plunge and decided I would have him.

It was a dream come true (kind of)! Never did I dream when blowing my candles out on my birthday, and wishing for a pony every year since I can remember, that my horse would spook, run off and I would fall off and break my wrist on the 6th day of owning him... Woops! I still don’t blame him for that at all, it was more down to my inexperience of riding. We were both learning together. Nevertheless I was able to give cuddles and do poo picking one handed so that was fine.

Fast forward a few months he was able to be in a field with others and had made a best friend, called ‘H’, who we loved hacking out with.

Everything was going swimmingly, each day we’d face a new challenge and each day we would overcome the new challenge. Unfortunately H moved homes so Nixon made friends with two mares instead, one of which is very old but thinks of Nixon as her boyfriend.

In December 2011 we had another ‘woopsie’ moment and I fell off, but this time breaking my collarbone. It was so painful and for the first time something had really knocked my confidence.

Since then the hard work has continued and we’ve been growing in confidence slowly but surely. We still have our bad days and he’s still rather green sometimes but we are getting there and this summer you can follow our progress both schooling and attempting some hacking. I will share lots more stories and am more than willing to help or answer any questions you readers may have.

On our good days which is probably 80% of the time now, everything is amazing. I don’t see there ever being an end to our journey of learning as every day we both learn something new.

However there is nothing that breaks my heart with love more than when my big brown monster trots over to give me the biggest cuddles and kisses. He is now known as 'Noodle baby' can't really remember how that came about. Not only have I taught him so much, but he has taught me so much too. You may have noticed in some of our more recent photos he’s wearing a party hat and we even had bunting hanging off of his fence, and he didn’t even flinch.

If you feel passionate enough about something you really can overcome any obstacle. It hasn't been easy but I can't thank my auntie and the lady I share the yard with enough for their help and support along the way.

Never ever give up.
Gemma xx





Wednesday 12 June 2013

23 & Me

On the 4th of June at approximately 5:35am... I become a year older! I always love my birthday and like to do lots of different mini events to make it last at least a week. This year it fell on a Tuesday, which isn’t a particularly exciting day, so I dragged my mum around lots of shops in Cambridge. It's so pretty there and we even found time to have a picnic in the park in the sunshine which was lovely. I finished off my day with a family meal in Prezzo and used a voucher they emailed to me, for a birthday treat, for a free bottle of prosecco which slipped down nicely (definitely worthwhile signing up to their voucher codes).

I got so many lovely presents, like hanging pieces for my room with positive quotes on, flower fairy lights and lots of new makeup!
At the weekend, the celebrations continued and I enjoyed a nice party night out on Saturday with my closest friends and a BBQ on the Sunday with my family (although unfortunately it was VERY chilly).

I love turning a new age – it’s kind of like starting a new year – a fresh start! I started being 23 in the most satisfying way I could think of... a 5K run! I started a running club 12 weeks ago so each week we’ve built up the kilometres and our speed. Before that I hadn’t done much running so it felt like an amazing accomplishment to do something I couldn’t have done when I turned 22.

I have been constantly convincing everyone around me (and myself) that 23 is going to be ‘my year’. I’m going to make the most of it; as my dad keeps reminding me ‘early twenties are the best days of your lives’ yet it sent me into a panic that I’m not making the most of mine.

So here I am 23&Me! With a new found positive attitude I aim to face my fears and do things I wouldn’t have dreamt of doing at 22. I want to continue on the journey of finding who I am and who I want to be, remembering ‘happiness is not a destination it’s a way of life’. I’m going to be creative, take too many photographs, take risks and most of all have no regrets. Who knows hopefully next year I will start my 24th birthday running 10k!

  Gemma xx
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